4:40 AM
hmm..
i jus got back from school
today have the history trip
then i kana caught in the rain
drench till siao
went to change clothes
sians
he yesterday nite sent me a msg
"seriously.. i was weird is cos mi feeling for u hav already faded..n i don noe wat to say wen i see u or tok to u.. hmmm.. shall we b fren fer the time bein?.."
(8feb, 11:43:57pm)
i was shocked when i saw this message
i didn't noe what to reply
i immediately broke down
and started crying
no matter how hard david, brandon n bev tried to stop me frm cryin
i jus couldn't stop
i cried n cried
cried for the whole nite
cried till e sun rise
actually i cried till 4am
then went to slp
and woke up at 5.45am
and started crying again
how?
will tis crying ever stop
why?
why must tis happen again?
im feeling so sad
i want to cry
or rather im crying
this morning my eyes n nose was swollen
from all the crying
i cried during lesson again today
i didn't noe what to reply him
david n bev told me not to reply yet
she told me to calm down first
but i insist onreplyin
so i replied
i replied during my recess
n i cried again
haish
wads happening to me
i mus learn to let go
i dont tink there's chance for us to be together already
once the feeling faded
it takes a long long time to recover
sianx
i want to noei really wan to noehis feeling for me really faded already?is there even a little tiny weny bit of feeling for me?but no matter whati still love himhowever its not as much as beforebut i still love him!!!!![saded* im going crazy soon alrelady!]
;
* euu brought me back to reality`
